had a dream that the entire night sucked. FACK
i’m enveloped in trepidation. but i can’t tell who is more, me or just people in general nowadays? even if it’s through an internet social network, i can tell some of these people are reserved. they only trust their immediate family and friends, and are scared to connect to new acquaintances. i mean, i’m sure myspace curbed their naivety. and internet presence doesn’t necessarily reflect who a person is in reality. and now on facebook, people add based on mutual friends.it’s like these people know of each other before they even really meet. and they’ve already made their mind up whether or not they’re going to continue meeting.
perhaps virginia beach is the issue. i missed real life experiences anyways. time to get me the hell out of here. let me rephrase, time to grow.
there’s too much going on. i live life too fast to take the time to translate it through the internet. see me in real life and we’ll share a story.
i’ve been drinking a lot again lately. apparently with blackberry phones, keeping in contact with people who want to drink is simple. i’ll be turning 21 soon, so hopefully i chill out.
on another note, i’m really grateful that i got the opportunity to spend time with kyle and vincent. it’s not completely the same since they’re both grown, but watching them mature into adulthood is dope. mad jealous, real talk.
i gotta hurry up and get on my grizzy.
outside perspectives flatter me despite originating from misconceptions. i use to feel too complex for people to understand. now i’ve become way too simple. fear has controlled me for far too long.